God that sucked. I just made out with a boy. One I was quite clear that I just wanted a quick fuck with. Only he could not get hard, and I didn't feel like working to make him hard; I just wanted to fuck.
So there we were, me rolling my eyes while I was masturbating him, feeling like I did when I did it for money, and finally I had to stop. And I said, I'm sorry, but... I'm bored. I am not very attracted to (anyone) male bodied persons right now. And you need to go home and take care of your dog. And you can't sleep here. I know myself, and I know that if I wake up with another person in my bed, I will not go to work. It will already be impossible to go to work.
Shit.
Apparently people respect me. But I can't make out with or fuck them. Maybe I don't respect them? Well, actually, with N1ck it is that I respect him too much to make out with him while he is that drunk. With OtherBoy, I don't think I ever want to make out or fuck again.
But he is a kid. 22 is a kid, even though he doesn't think so now. Also I was already older than he is when I was 22.
It sounds assholeish to say that, but I don't think it's untrue.
Goodnight world.
We'll see what tomorrow brings.