We broke up.
We are going to try to be friends.
We have hang dates on Wednesdays.
We realize we may end up making out.
Sometimes.
I feel dull.
I am still sick.
I want to chain smoke.
I am sad, in shock, single.
Free...
Whatever our relationship was, I wasn't free before, and I am now. Kind of whether or not I want to be. Which I both do and don't.
But I don't want to lament about what might have been. I want to be present and here.