I am a fucking idiot. I can't focus on anything important. I just hang out and do nothing all the time, and convince myself that it's what I'm supposed to be doing. What I need to be doing is going to work all the time and dedicating my life to the art space. I pay an assload of rent for nothing, and it's completely my own doing. I am going to stop drinking, for a week. Possibly indefinitely. I feel like shit, and I smoke too much. I need to quit that as well. I am going to start working this catering job, I need something I absolutely have to show up for and can't make excuses to myself about not doing. Fuck.