Alright, no whining. I need money and I have an avenue with which to earn it. So tomorrow & Saturday I am going to go to SmallTown Club and earn that cash. Yesterday was my cry for me aren't I sad day. Yesterday I cleaned the shit out of the apartment and then watched TV & ate mostly junk food all day. I did get a newspaper, but there were no jobs in there that were appropriate: either a real job I can take seriously or a bullshit job I can quit without guilt once I get that real job. Yesterday I got a phone call letting me know that I did not get the Other Job. I thought I had it just because he called, I was so excited. I'm not sure if its more personal or more cruel to call instead of The Letter.
Well, today the whining is over. So I don't really have any real friends here except Ponge, such is life. I lived an entire year in Senegal like that & at least the friends I have here I can be totally honest with - unlike in Senegal. There are just certain topics there it is better to keep to yourself about in Senegal. My goal right now is not to get some friends I feel 100% comfortable around anyway. My goal is to get a job I love with a pay that allows Ponge and I to eventually get a house and a yard and a dog and some kids.
So: my goal for today is to do the annoying, eye tiring work of looking up & printing out & applying for all the nonprofit jobs that I think I might even remotely like & which I am qualified for. I have nothing else to do, except the dishes & put away the laundry. But that shit will wait, because I don't want to feel like I've accomplished anything until I've accomplished this job shit.